What I Guess I Came to Say

 What I Guess I Came to Say

https://youtu.be/xF6TPfTwRZc

(the video is maybe worth seeing, mostly because of the light that dims at the end, exactly on cue, which it did entirely on its own recognizance.)

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The practical reality of doing what I do

seemingly impracticably makes me climb

back into reinventing plans to mimic who

I think I was or what I did the last time

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I believe I had succeeded: that’s a pain

with little prospect of a gain: “again”

is not a notion to rejoice in: but to feign

a former me, to re-ingest some madeleine

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to re-inhabit memory - may be the best

maneuver I could conjure up to shoo in

inconceivable catastrophe, to fail the test

of being serviceably human, ergo ruin

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the renewal of what had been an ability

I now had lost: to render calm accord

from those so rageful with malignant incivility,

no calm could now arrive except by sword.

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But that would be uncivil and untoward.

Then, at last! I now recall their favorite condition.

“Hit the ground!” I yell as I move forward.

With great relief they do. They love submission.

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One twists and turns and burns

to find a serviceable way.

I suppose that’s how one learns.

I guess it’s what I came to say.