She committed
her audacity now thirteen
years, six months
ago. What did she know 
when she was
dying? – at the edge of dead, 
lying comatose
in bed – too bewitched to say?
Now you pray
in January for a mystic snow 
to freeze the
moment that she’d died: to numb 
the heat she didn’t
feel, then couldn't feel, 
to clarifying
cold. (Outside, July had fried.)
She did feel
cold. Remember when she told 
you to turn
up the heat (diction elegantly neat): 
"How could you not? It's
freezing!" Appeasing
dying bodies
isn't easy. “How could you not?” 
she’d asked, with
careful syntax, even now,
unmasked. In
your dream's Sargasso Sea 
last night
three women's heads arose in front 
of you. Only one
appeared to notice you. 
They didn't
look like her, but they were she. 
(After “were” not “her” but “she.”) But they’d 
not come to lecture
you grammatically, much
less to tease or pique. Death doesn’t speak.
.


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