Whatever a
classic beauty was, he’d have to say
she wasn’t. Whatever
a well-bred lady does
he’s very sure she
doesn’t: wouldn’t, couldn’t.
She’s a scheme he summons now and then –
though often
enough: every seventh dream or so.
She isn’t there
to soften or be softened into
acquiescent pet – she’s there to test his mettle –
see what stuff
he’s made of now. He’s told
his therapist
about her – what the fix feels like
she puts him in
– sharp mix of fear and lust –
a tug-of-war
between their eyes, his fragile trust –
the prize of cheeks
he wants to touch, lips to kiss,
tricks she plays. He weighs the silences his therapist
can be relied
upon to wield: sure he sees
the dreamer’s psychic
field of blood-red poppies
that the dreamer won’t confess he wants to pick,
but picks. The
therapist has worked it out.
No psychoanalytic
doubt about this dominatrix.
Perhaps. But
not quite whom this dreamer dreams.
She’s stranger than
she seems. If they were on
opposing
baseball teams (as he occasionally dreams),
he the pitcher, she at bat: she’d bunt – to tease him,
see how much he
wanted it, how clumsily he’d run
to it – to watch
his awkward fall as he again
missed catching it. She’ll not deride, she will
affectionately
laugh: invade him like a patch
of pleasurable rash. Oh, how he loves scratching it!
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